We’ve all been there. We’re in the midst of a situation, frustrated, trying to figure out what to do next. We begin to question ourselves. It can be a dark place.
I can still remember the night, after my first day of teaching. I had gone through my years at college, earned my degree and certifications. I had been prepared by others and life, with more than I could have ever hoped for. My first day, as an official teacher even went well.
So why did I drop to the floor of my bedroom, feeling completely overwhelmed? I found myself doing the only thing I knew to do. I cried, hiccuping, gasping cries, to the only One who I knew understood me better than myself, my God. I wasn’t upset that I didn’t feel equipped with knowledge on the subject I was teaching. I wasn’t uncomfortable working with my students. Yet, I felt inadequate.
Who was I to think I had something to teach the future of our country, young men and women, who would be molded partly by what I imparted to them?
So, what else could I do? I felt inadequate, because I am. All of a sudden, for at least 9-10 months, the lives of others were being entrusted to me. Many would come to me, expecting answers, and the responsibility suddenly felt too great.
But, as I cried out to my Heavenly Father, all was made right. He gently reminded me that I may not always know all the answers, but I know Someone who does. When those impressionable lives asked me for direction, I may not always know what to say, but I know Someone who does.
By the time I stood up, not much had changed around me, but something had definitely changed inside of me. I felt confident that no matter what lied before me, I could walk forward, knowing that my God would guide me.
Proverbs 3:5-6 says, “Trust in the Lord with all your heart and lean not on your own understanding; in all your ways submit to him, and he will make your paths straight.” I was confident, knowing that not only did I not have all the answers, but I didn’t have to have all the answers.
Isn’t that where true wisdom comes from, acknowledging the One who is greater than ourselves? Why do we sometimes lack wisdom, in a situation? Sometimes it is just a matter of crying out to the One who can see the beginning and the end, and asking for His wisdom, which far surpasses our own.
Life isn’t always easy, but no matter what happens, know that God has a plan for you and your circumstances.
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